Friday, July 20, 2012

I Feel Like an Idiot and a Half

There's a lot I could say.  There's a lot I don't want to say.  I really like the title of this post.  I don't just feel like an idiot, I feel like it goes beyond.  

Mostly this is a feeling in response to dating relationships.  No, I have not gone a date since my boyfriend broke up with me.  Someone made the comment that I need to go on dates to let him go.  Well, I've let him go.  I didn't go on many dates before him, it's not like all the guys are going to rush at me just because I'm single again.  Well I know they would for some girls, but I was never one of those girls.  

I've been accused of being a terrible flirt.  While there's truth to that, it goes beyond just flirting.  Confidence is a big issue.  A lack of desire to be social is another.  

I take the Probability Exam on Wednesday.  Yesterday I was looking for something in a pile.  I found a piece of paper I wrote in January.  It said, "Big, Harry, Audacious Goal"  Underneath is read, "Pass the P-Exam on Friday."  Well, I failed.  Now it's my time to try again.  I'm not ready.  I haven't given up yet, but I don't have a lot of faith in myself right now.  Third time's the charm, right?  

I can't wait to go home.  No boys and no tests.  Oh, well, I guess there could be a boy when I go to my sister's.  Considering that I'm pretty sure he's forgotten about me, I'm not holding my breath.  Back to my excitement: I am so stoked to go home.  

Tuesday, July 03, 2012

Bad Timing

I have one semester and only two classes in my major left.  I can fail one major class and still graduate.  With this in mind, it might be a little late for me to decide that actuarial science just might be a little over my head.  And by a little I mean a lot.

Welp, I don't think I can change my major anymore so onward I go.

Tee hee hee hee hee.

* I think I'm developing a new motto for my life.  It used to be "Continue as though you know no fear."  Now it's more like "Keep struggling.  You have to struggle in order to get it." After all, everything worth getting is worth struggling for.