Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Post 300

Well, I really don't have anything important to say, so I'm just going to ramble and delete until I come up with a post worthy of being posted. Or even if it's less than worthy, it will still get posted because...well...why not?

Post 2oo was written two years ago yesterday. Weird. I have changed so much since then. And yet I am much the same person. 100 posts has seen me through my mission and back into the real world - which is really a fake world because the real world is on the mission when you discover what serving the Lord really is about :)

I have a goal to get my ham radio's license. However, despite the fact that I don't do anything important all day, I still feel it hard to study. How am I going to make it going back to school? I still don't know what I want to study. Yesterday I was listening to a podcast and the speakers were saying how unattractive is a girl who doesn't have a vision.

This post is feeling as sloppy as my life. Here, let me add pictures from years ago :)

This picture is to remind me that my goal IS to graduate.

Ziggy died when I was on my mission. She was the only Chinese Water Dragon that has ever nuzzled me. Of course, she was the only Chinese Water Dragon that I've ever known.

Kalina actually died a few years ago...way back when I was in Russia. However, how many Chihuahuas do you know that can fly? Exactly. She was pretty much amazing.

Friday, August 06, 2010

Where Are We Today

When I was younger, if someone ever asked me what my greatest fear would be, I would probably respond, "Doing something to mess up the world." At the time, I didn't know the future. All I knew was that I wanted to stay on the Lord's side and I didn't want to get off-track.

The world is getting more and more wicked. In the MTC I remember reading about Pahoran in Alma 61. (I love Pahoran). I greatly loved verses 12-14: "We would subject ourselves to the yoke of bondage if it were requisite with the justice of God, or if he should command us so to do. But behold he doth not command us that we shall subject ourselves to our enemies, but that we should put our trust in him, and he will deliver us. Therefore, my beloved brother, Moroni, let us resist evil, and whatsoever evil we cannot resist with our words, yea, such as rebellions and dissensions, let us resist them with our swords, that we may retain our freedom, that we may rejoice in the great privilege of our church, and in the cause of our Redeemer and our God. "

I thought to myself, "I can't really use that on my mission. I mean, I really shouldn't be urging people to start rebellions." Well, I'm not a missionary anymore.

No I'm not going to start a rebellion. I just wish everyone read the Declaration of Independence again.

With the world how it is around us, it wouldn't surprise me if we were on the brink of another Civil War. And yet could you think of anything more sad? Truths are bending left and right. The line between good and evil is becoming thicker and more gray. People use logic without the spirit which blinds them to the clear picture. I don't know what the future holds, but I have a feeling we're in for a roller coaster.