Wednesday, October 31, 2007

The Golden Compass

Doesn’t that just sound cool? Last week my roommate and I were having a discussion about life. She brought up the issue of The Golden Compass, which I had never heard of before. Now I seem to see it everywhere. I’m reminded of 2Nephi 15:20. “Wo unto them that call evil good, and good evil, that put darkness for light, and light for darkness, that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!” There is so much in today’s times that seem to be such. It’s all right to swear on the radio, but did I hear right that they want to take out mentioning God? How have we as a people digressed so?

If you haven’t heard of The Golden Compass, let me tell you what I know. It’s made to look child friendly and even, I think, be sort of child friendly. Then the kids will ask their parents for the books which are not so child friendly. Each one gets progressively darker until the series ends with the children killing off God. The idea was so fantastic I hardly wanted to believe it to be just what it is. The author Philip Pullman wants to kill off God in the minds of children.

I personally don’t plan on seeing it. We are supposed to fill our lives with the best books and the best sources of entertainment. This doesn’t seem to quite fit that category.

Monday, October 29, 2007

If At First You Don’t Succeed…

So, I just had a thought. When did the Great Apostasy occur? It occurred right after the savior came and organized his church himself. Now, I’m not saying He was a failure in any sense of the word. He completed the atonement and accomplished all that we hoped he would. I just thought it was interesting that the Greatest Apostasy occurred soon after the Greatest Event occurred. Yet we know that the church will never fall into apostasy again. So, doesn’t that just add to the saying, “If at first you don’t succeed, try, try again.” We should never give up.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

They Just Keep Coming

I thought that after so many years of leading missionaries in their service assignments, I’d learn to get less attached to them. Nope. Today was the last day of service for some going to Argentina. You can not know how much they have influenced me. I love them so dearly. And then I think back to others that I’ve had. Some have gone to Korea, some have gone to Japan, and some have gone stateside. Each time they leave I wonder if I’ll ever see them again. They are starting on a remarkable adventure, one that I so want to go on myself. I keep thinking no one could be as good as the last. Then some one new comes and I don’t know how I could ever compare them to anyone else. We are a mighty force. There are so many good people in this world.

I think the hardest thing for me to think about is how will it all end? I don’t like saying goodbye. You’d think I’ve gotten used to it after doing it so many times. I can’t imagine what it must be like for these people who spend 9-12 weeks together and then get sent to different missions. Will they ever see each other again? Do you typically stay friends with your companion in the MTC?

There’s a song in the animated Return of the King. It’s called, “It’s So Easy Not to Try.” The only line I really remember is, “If you never say hello, you don’t have to say goodbye.” So there you have it. I don’t want to serve a mission because I don’t want to say any more hellos. Ha! That’s such a horrible reason. Of course I want to serve a mission! Of course I’m not going to barricade myself away from civilization just because eventually someone will leave me or even die. Life happens. We lose connections with people. But as long as we live righteously, we never lose anyone. There is no real goodbye.

I wish these sisters luck in the mission field. They are awesome. We will meet again.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

I Am A Jerk

When I’m nervous, I get hyper. When I’m around boys, my head goes fuzzy. (You’d think I’d get over that now that I AM twenty years old). Apparently, they are not a good combination.

I actually said these words, “When I’m nervous, I get hyper. That’s the only reason why I’m talking to you.”

Okay, so the point of this post is to tell everyone I’m sorry. This isn’t the first time I’ve said something really dumb. I’m sure the apology is better suited for the guy sitting next to me in Sacrament Meeting, but as you can imagine, I inserted my foot in my mouth right after saying it. So this also serves as a future apology to anything I might say on accident. PLEASE forgive me.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Done Deal

Welp, it’s a done deal. Today I signed the contract. I’m gonna be here at BYU for another semester at least. (My insides scream, “AT MOST!”)

We won our Frisbee game today. Yea for us!

Yesterday I woke up for the day the earliest I’ve ever done before. Beat 2am! People were still partying from Thursday night when I was ready to start my Friday morning.

My roommate and I have been having spamming wars. Her spam grows exponentially, and I just reached 100 recently. However, I guess the month is up and now some of my older spam are being deleted. I’m down to only 93. I’ll never make it to 400 at this rate. (Oh darn).

Life is…going. Classes are…going. I am…staying. Hmm, I wonder what that says about me.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Today Is a Good Day to Drive

It’s taken me a long time, but today I remembered that I was supposed to call Kaiser for some odd reason. I have to say, I’m very impressed with their machine to be able to tell if what I was saying was positive or negative because I didn’t stick with the normal “yes” and “no” answers.

The reason why I’m bothering to mention this is because the machine concluded with, “And remember, today is a good day to drive.” Or, at least, that’s what I think she said. I’ve already driven to and from work today, which basically concludes my driving exercises for the day. Yeah, I’m still trying to understand why my insurance company wants me to drive today. Do they want me to get in a wreck?

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

That Tiny, Small, Insignificant Thought

Well, my decision has been made. Today I talked with a girl in my ward who is selling her contract. It would be heartless for me to try and back out now. I don’t think I would anyway.

Originally I wanted to go on a mission pretty much the minute I turned twenty-one. A week ago Sunday my resolve was tested and now it grows dimmer. Don’t get me wrong. I WILL go on a mission. However, I think I’m going to go through another semester first. It’s kind of funny, but it really had more to do with the girl who’s selling than the fact that an apartment is available. I knew from the beginning that people would get engaged. It happens every fall semester. So, why did the feeling come last week? I don’t know. Anyway, that’s where I stand right now. Pretty much the only thing that has been on my mind this last week was what I was going to do for winter semester. I have my answer.

Monday, October 01, 2007

The Head Vs the Heart

Reason has always governed me. I deal mainly with what makes sense. (Doesn’t that make sense?) I don’t understand what is happening right now. A quiet, little, insignificant thought is plaguing my mind more than I thought it should. Who’d have thought? Everything in my being says to ignore this little insignificant thought. I normally would have except for the fact that…well…for some reason I didn’t. Part of me wonders if I still have a chance to let it go, or if I should delve into it and actually see it as a possibility. There’s no logic at all. All it would be is a whim. If people asked me why I changed my mind, I’d have nothing to answer. I’m making it sound like this is the right choice, I know; but it really feels like the wrong choice. So, if I’ve now confused you all beyond world’s end, then I have achieved success. You now know what if feels like to be me.